finally back home

and my room looks like texas atm (with the storm (ike)). The only thing i bothered to unpack was my outfit for tomorrow and school books. the rest is scattered on the floor, some of it partially in the suitcase. right now I wanted to enjoy the new single from dir en grey: glass skin that's been waiting for me in my room for days now! But! itunes refuses to cooperate with me! atm I don't have a windows line or whatever it's called in english (startlinje) so I probably have to turn the comp. off and on again. grr.

today my brother, mom and I went to sweden. I bought nearly 2 kg with candy and some red bulls. Sugarfree red bulls that is. As if that helps after 2 kg with nearly pure sugar. I also bought an adidas t-shirt. I thought it was neat. Actually I just like the word neat. I thought it was cool. So even if I don't look cool wearing it, I'll know that the t-shirt in itself is cool. (now this rambling is a classic sign of me getting hyped up on sugar and to little sleep.)

When I left from my moms place I managed to leave my ipod in the car so for the first time in years I didn't have any music on the plane trip. It was painful. I feel so alone without my beloved ipod. Today I realized that I actually feel more alone and alienated without my ipod than my cell phone. I miss my music! The first thing I told dad when I saw him was that I refuse to take the bus to school untill I get my ipod back. A bus ride without music is torture in the mornings. I'm usually very tired and just want to disappear into a non-existing universe in my head. or fall asleep. either one works. By the way, I appologize to everyone that's had to put up with my morning-absentness. I'm sorry, I don't want to seem rejecting, I'm just not properly awake yet.

tomorrow I have to move the horses and tidy my room, but after that I'll demand that renate invites me over to check out her room! can't wait! And I look forward to seeing maria's new hair!

I'm bringing devil horns, cuffs and a sheet to school tomorrow, sounds deviant? maybe I am deviant, or maybe we're taking photos tomorrow?

I'll wear my new vans boots to school tomorrow, good night you.